Last week was my birthday so it was all about the “Treat yo’self 2017” and, since stationary = life, I treated myself to my favourite guilty pleasure.
A fun little ban.do diary (which comes with cute stickers, yes STICKERS), some motivational pens and a bookmark that costs more than most books but oohhh shiny.
I’ve always loved stationary. If you’re going to do a lot of planning, note-taking, jotting, doodling and written word-vomming then you might as well do it in style I say.
I’m also a sucker for anything that helps me feel in “the mode” or the perfect environment for the above activities, including writing. Scented candles, pretty mugs and a perfectly clean apartment also usually comes part of the headspace territory for me.
So it was no surprise that, when my recent “Let’s Do This!” plan was set in motion, I was inclined to invest in such space-makers again.
I’ve got the ideas, I’ve got the motivation, I’ve got the perfect hipster satchel setup with matching notepads included. I. AM. READY.
...I. AM. STILL. READY.
THINGS. ARE. STILL. THE SAME.
WHY. AREN’T. I. WRITING. FULL-TIME. YET.
OH. GOD. WHAT’S. TAKING. SO. LONG.
POWER OF THE PEN GOD WHERE ARE YOU?!
Have patience, young jedi
“Calm yer tits, it’s been like 2 weeks” was something I kept having to remind myself this week.
I know a lot of us suffer from a difficult relationship with patience. When you feel so driven, start making all the right decisions and push yourself to put in the hours, it’s easy to want to see the results straight away.
Anything from job searching, saving money or learning a new skill, when your goal is to “do the thing” then every day that goes by where you haven’t yet “done the thing” can feel like a failure.
Realistic, small, stepping-stone goals are an absolute must but it’s more than that. It’s also about realising some things are out of your control, some things simply take time and sometimes life signposts you in unexpected ways that you can’t ignore.
“I’m going to make a living more from my writing” is about as vague as it gets and no amount of fancy diaries can help me plan that goal in.
But “try and write for 1 hour every day” is something I can do (with a focus on the word try) and “contact person X about opportunity Y this week” is also the kind of obtainable steps I can, and should be, focusing on.
Importantly, adding a pinch of “and what happens after that, I’ll wait and see” mentality is worth more than all the sassy, motivational pens in the world. Hell, if it helps you could even pencil in when you’re going to worry about XYZ next time and chase it up, with the intention of not giving it much headspace until then.
If we don’t allow for more patience then we risk sacrificing too much of the now for anxiety about tomorrow. And if you’re reading that and, like me, thinking “yeh, story of my life” then trust that any story can be re-written.
Do what you can to be ready for when the time comes. Know when to let go and take the time that’s needed.